It was a Sunday afternoon and Candace had just came from church. She wore her pastel purple colored dress that fell off of he shoulders just enough not to look slutty in the house of God. She wore cute white flats that made her feet looking amazing for once. She always thought she had feet like her fathers, but they were nice as long as they were polished. She threw her keys on the counter and dropped her purse on the counter by the fridge. She took a deep breath and opened the fridge to see the bottle of wine she had been saving for days now. She took that out and put it on ice and grabbed some pepperonis, crackers, and cheese for a snack. Church was definitely for her today she thought to herself. Pastor Dixon preached in the book of 1 Corinthians regarding love. It was something she thought she had a handle on, but actually had lost sight on. As she was in deep thought her phone started to vibrate. She walked over and picked it up to see that it was, Donald, her boyfriend. The text said ” I miss you, can’t wait to spend time with my favorite girl”. Candace cracked a smile, but only replies with a simple ” I miss you too, and the feeling is mutual”. She loved Donald, but ever since she had noticed things that didn’t sit well with her, she has been a little stand-offish as she would say. She didn’t bring anything up to Donald about how she was feeling because he would just lie and twist things and confuse her. At this point she wanted to know if she was just holding on because she didn’t want to be alone, or if they were meant to be.
Candace would be heading to see Donald in a couple days. They had a long distance relationship, and on her end she was completely faithful. The fact that she opened herself up again after what she had been through was big for her, but to open up and be hurt again just wasn’t apart of her plans. she put the phone down and walked over to her couch with her wine and snacks. She had a lot to think about, and she wanted to clear her head before she saw Donald. She just needed some kind of sign. As Candace watched TV, she heard a knock on the door. “I wasn’t expecting any company today” she thought to herself. She got up to open the door and smiled with so much joy to see her friend Justice standing there with this goofy ass smile. She wanted to be alone to think, but she rather have the company of one of her best friends. Justice was so down to earth and understanding, but such a realist at the same time. Sometimes Candace couldn’t handle all her realness in one day. The two women hugged each other so tight as if they never wanted to let go. They walked over to the living room to get comfortable. Justice took a sip of Candace’s wine and they just threw their heads back and laughed. ” So whats been up love ? How are you? We haven’t talked in like two weeks! I had to come and check on you!” said Justice. Candace took a deep breath and said ” Jus I’ve been really in my head lately. Trying to figure out my life. Hell mostly my love life. I’ve just been feeling uneasy about a few things”. Justice put the wine glass down because she could look in her friends face to see that this was serious. ” Candace whats been going on ? You guys seem so happy most of the time. Have you prayed about it? I’m surprised your even mentioning him regarding that you keep your relationships so secretive now.” Justice says.
Candace tilts her head and twisted her mouth as if she was confused. She knew Justice was right, but keeping a relationship just between her and her lover seemed to be the best thing for her. She figured that if she was to get hurt then the whole world wouldn’t have to know about it. She could take the disappointment silently. ” Well yeah I do keep my relationships under wrapped because it just better when less people know whats going on with you life. But yes, I started talking to God about it, and I’m honestly waiting on his reply.” Candace said with a big sigh. It’s just little things that bother me, or that I notice that puts me in a not trusting mindset. I could be over reacting, or I could be right about the whole thing, Jus, I was thinking maybe that a relationship may be a distraction right now?” Candace said with a loud exhale. Justice scooted over closer to Candace and gave her a hug. She knew the feelings Candace had were real and no advice she had could lighten the mood except God. “Candace, lets pray together, put it all out on the table for God to handle, and then you continue to live your life with less worry because of course he’ll fight your battles. Don’t let this stump you girl.” said Justice with a Strong embrace.
Both women got on their knees and held each others hands and closed their eyes as they started to pray:

Candace: Heavenly Father I come to you today asking you to purify my heart, mind, body, and soul. Clear my head of all mischief and hurtful things. Lord clear my path and give me wisdom beyond my years. Lord if you could lead my heart and mind in the right direction. If I’m not suppose to be in this moment please remove me from the situation.

Justice: Lord, and if this is where she is suppose to be in the moment then please provide her with the necessary tools to get her through. There will be no depression, no unhappiness, no hurtful tears. Give her the armor she needs to make it through any battle, but we know she won’t need to fight because you will fight all her battles. Give her patience Lord..

Together: We love you Lord, In Jesus name Amen

They got up and sat back on the couch. Candace looked at Justice with so much appreciation. ” Jus, Thank you for being here with me and praying. Talking to God is the only thing keeping me afloat seems like. Love is suppose to be pure just like my Lord…And I won’t settle for anything less. I love you girl ” Candace said. ” I love you too boo” smiled Justice.

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